You gave up everything so that i can have everything

I really can’t describe how am i feeling now. It’s not just only joy in my heart but there are also lots of things that can’t stop me from smiling. Looking back, i realized it has been a long three months for me. i grumbled and complaint each and every day in the first two months. i was ignorant and disbelieving. i wanted things to go my way.

During our Myf camp Pastor Andy spoke about God wants us to go for his calling but not our career. After that, he asked us to close our eyes and pray. And I heard a voice telling me “colleges has pearly, xiao juan, tiffany and ruth. but how about other places?” at that point, i saw a place full of tress and obviously it’s not a city.

well, did that change my mind which is so determine to go college? Nope..

I tried to ignore that as much as i can and worst of all i began to fill my life with discontenment especially after four of my best buddies left. I wanted so much to control my future. I just don’t want to let go. How stupid and stubborn i was! This went on until one day when i was praying, i saw both of my hands clutching on a steel bar and there was another hand patting mine to let go of the steel bar. It took me a day to realized that i need to let go of my future and a month to really let go in peace. it really wasn’t easy.

Finally, i decided not to go for march intake. I have faith in God that he will give me the best. That’s his promise to me. After that, i felt a deep peace that i have not experienced for months.

Guess what? his promise came true today. I got a great result which i’ll never expect it in my entire life. I realy can’t describe how i felt went i saw my result because it assured me that God never fails. He has planned my future so well for me. I don’t have to worry at all.
I really thank God for making me imperfect so that i’ll always depend on him.

I thank God that he opened up my eyes to see that living in this world is not about me but to fulfill his purpose.
“not by my will, but thy will be done”
Jesus went up to the cross not by his will but to fulfill his purpose on this earth. My result may determine the next phase of my life which God has planned for me. It’s not about how good my result is. It’s about serving the Lord in the place that God wants me to be.
God has helped me to build up my faith in him in this three months. His great love for me can never be described by words. It’s for you to experience it yourself. My God is real!

Thank you, Jesus for giving up everything so that i can have everything today. You died for me because your love for me is beyond everything.