and now its time for me to try out a new hair style————–curls!

i’m curly Jou now!!!

jouning proundly presents the soft n comfy carpet!

i only manage to get one picture on the day i’m leaving. so sorry..

the next thing i know is i’m “stranded” in a place full of tress.i really don’t have much picture to put up and i hate outing beacuse the mall here is quite “lala”. the bus is always very crowded and it really stinks. so i’m spending most of my time in my room and of course i brought lots of pinky stuff along with me. this is one of them. i’m so proud with my towel. hehe..

well, the people here are very nice to me. some even take care of me like a little sister. haha.. that’s all i can blog to keep you guys updated about me.

I’m just pleased with my answer for my final question: why do u deserve this scholarship?

I gave stupid answer for why do i want to be a doctor. Although that’s real but, it’s not convincing at all.

To make things worse, I didn’t take the initiative to start the discussion first. I know what is first class technology; third class mentality. The girl who started thougth that third class mentallity is about lacking in the sense of knowledge. After that the interviewer corrected her. I knew it was about our nation’s attitude. I have seen this question before when i was reading the forum posted by those who went for the interview in the pass few years. And yet, i still let my chance slipped away. Argh! stupid!

Next, i forgot to be creative when i’m ansewring the question. CREATIVE!!!!
WHY MUST I GIVE LAME ANSWERS???? AND THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ‘I FORGOT’

well, yesterday is yesterday.
look ahead.. God is there.

During our Myf camp Pastor Andy spoke about God wants us to go for his calling but not our career. After that, he asked us to close our eyes and pray. And I heard a voice telling me “colleges has pearly, xiao juan, tiffany and ruth. but how about other places?” at that point, i saw a place full of tress and obviously it’s not a city.

well, did that change my mind which is so determine to go college? Nope..

I tried to ignore that as much as i can and worst of all i began to fill my life with discontenment especially after four of my best buddies left. I wanted so much to control my future. I just don’t want to let go. How stupid and stubborn i was! This went on until one day when i was praying, i saw both of my hands clutching on a steel bar and there was another hand patting mine to let go of the steel bar. It took me a day to realized that i need to let go of my future and a month to really let go in peace. it really wasn’t easy.

Finally, i decided not to go for march intake. I have faith in God that he will give me the best. That’s his promise to me. After that, i felt a deep peace that i have not experienced for months.

Guess what? his promise came true today. I got a great result which i’ll never expect it in my entire life. I realy can’t describe how i felt went i saw my result because it assured me that God never fails. He has planned my future so well for me. I don’t have to worry at all.
I really thank God for making me imperfect so that i’ll always depend on him.

I thank God that he opened up my eyes to see that living in this world is not about me but to fulfill his purpose.
“not by my will, but thy will be done”
Jesus went up to the cross not by his will but to fulfill his purpose on this earth. My result may determine the next phase of my life which God has planned for me. It’s not about how good my result is. It’s about serving the Lord in the place that God wants me to be.
God has helped me to build up my faith in him in this three months. His great love for me can never be described by words. It’s for you to experience it yourself. My God is real!

Thank you, Jesus for giving up everything so that i can have everything today. You died for me because your love for me is beyond everything.

13 swimming classes leads me to a severe sunburn.

I have lines at my back, my shoulder and even my thigh. Theses lines separate the fair from the dark and this  prove that i have uneven skin tone now. 

The fair part is so little now. The dark part has conquered my skin, starting from my thigh to my toe.

In fact my body has the shape of my swimming suit. I know i look hideous. 

I have only one word to describe myself

this is the letter that was sent to me

 They said their tuition center desperately need a handful of  tuition teacher and clerk. And if i’m interested I need to bring my REPORT CARD for my interview. Well, this is really funny to me because I have never heard of any job interview that require our report card.

On the other hand, I really pity those parents who send their children to this kind of tuition centre. They just simply employ any little girl like me who doesn’t know anything. haha..

guess wat?

I AM MAKING MY BERRY OWN CARPET!!

Well, this is how it looks like in the beginning.

These are the threads.

hopefully it’s enough for my whole carpet cuz this is just a rough estimation.

Btw, this is how it will look like when it’s done.

I just did part of it and it is really soft.

I can’t wait to lie on it when it’s done.

MORNING

7.50     wake up

8.00     driving practice and be prepared to get scolded by that stupid uncle

10.00  reach home

10.01   waste my time  

11.30    wash the vege

12.00    cook the rice

12.15    broil the fish

 AFTERNOON

 1.30    lunch

2.00    wash the dishes

 2.30   Zzzz….(at least 3-4 hours)

7.00   wake up… shower…wait for dinner

NIGHT

 8.00   dinner

9.00   wash the dishes

9.20    waste time again

10.00 watch tv

12.00 quiet time

That’s it. This is how i spend my weekdays. I realized a holiday without friends and purpose is

FRUSTRATING!

BORING! &

STUPID!

this is the best picture to describe how i look now. the only thing tat excites me now is my swimming class and myf. but sadly, it only happens on weekends. sigh!

1. i am saying goodbye to my 4 beloved friends

tiff is going to sunway college.

pearly and nat are going to taylors next week. everybody is leaving. i’m gonna miss them so so much. i can’t believe that today is the last sunday i’m sitting with them.next week i’ll be sitting with my parents. 

Me, on the other hand is going to rust and rot at home.  good thing my new friend just arrived today.

this is strawberry shortcake from strawberryland. i know i just made you guys speechless again.  anyway, she is going to accompany me for the rest of the begining of next year. please do not insult her.

2. i’m saying goodbye to my pinky. for your information, pinky met with an accident when we went to kl. it was quite a horrible car crash, pinky was rammed over by a car.

well, it still look quite fine, but don’t be decieved by its appearance. actually, pinky can’t display any image anymore.

see..the screen is really seriously damaged.  i wonder will it expode anytime.

anyway, this accident is kind of a blessing in disguise for me. i got my new phone on last mon.( this is not a very new model). but i’m really glad that i got it because i belive it is a blessing from the Lord. before this, my cousin bro(a handphone dealer) told me that it is quite impossible to get red colour for me. i was quite disappointed and i pray and ask god to help me to get the red one. and guess wat? on that very same afternoon, my cousin bro called and said he has got the red one for me. 

For 17 years, my fingernails is always short. in fact, it is really really short and ugly!!!! i have never use nail cutter all of my life. ok, i know i’m gross.

i’m going to start afresh now. i just painted my nails with shinny pink nail polish.

i know it doesn’t fit much on my short and ugly fingernails, but this is just the begining. i’ll make sure i’ll not bite anymore and i just cant wait for the day when my fingernails grow longer.